Sunday, January 9, 2011
Restless..
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Jelly Fish
| My photo from The Lost Chamber : Florescent sea jelly floating serenely. |
Movement means closure, a thrust from where you are, that glide other plane, your bell-like head with wordless aperture emptying, emptying, the pleats of your innards, a shallow accordion. Your tendrils trail neon lit cities of cells —you, pellucid ferry, invisibly carried spun dome like the ghost of some merry-go-round. And we who don’t float with such unconscious ease think it terror to rise from our notions of land, rock, and ownership, can’t ride a bottomless plain, colored thrust in our sails, in the lax, placid matter that holds, not from falls (for you too fill your head so your gossamer motors move onward) but holds your shape firm. Even you, if you never once moved, if you didn’t take in the first place where you are, fold around that cold present then push out, with liquid momentum (like knowledge) from flushed, chambered cells, would ascend nowhere new. In the planktonic dark, a touch is the world, the devouring of touch motion’s guidance. Your emptied bell head tolls the thrust, the sole luminous effort—clear life thinking’s lost!
An entry for
Monday, July 26, 2010
A Poem By The Ruler Of Dubai
A Mother's Lament
With sorrow she approached me, to speak of her son.
She seemed a broken soul, mistreated by him...
She thought that he valued her so dearly,
He who was part of her own flesh and being.
Wounded, she came to me when her hopes had been dashed,
She came with pain no time could measure.
She said: "After his father's abrupt demise,
I took care of him, and raised him so dearly...
An orphan with no place for shelter,
A mere infant, still sleeping in his cradle...
For his sake, I took up a servant's job,
Hoping nights' promise would someday be fulfilled...
Years went by, and grew into a man,
The day I awaited had finally arrived."
She paused right then, with silent tears,
Running down her cheeks, her pain I could see
With a broken voice, she spoke once again,
Of how he threw her out of the place they called home.
At first I kept silent, my soul was enraged
By the cruelty and injustice, brought upon her.
I said to her: "Your rights were denied as if in a lion's den,
They will be returned to you, after the beast's defeat..."
With an intention to help in such difficult times,
I called for him to reprimand his wrong-doing.
My words were interrupted by her pleading voice:
"What are you doing?" she asked in a startled tone.
"I am his Mother, Sir, do not condemn him.
How can a mother's heart oppress her own child?"
How vast is her forgiveness, how tender hear heart?
When empowered she pardoned and forgot his cruel deeds.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
With Love Wednesday - My Baby
We had the most beautiful Christmas gift in the year 2007. Andreas was born December 26. Finally, our own baby boy to love and to hold...
Author Unknown
It's three a.m., they're all asleep,
And no one's here to see
As we rock slowly back and forth
My baby boy and me.
His little head is feather-light
Tucked up against my chin.
I hold his tiny hand in mine
And stroke his baby skin.
The house about us creaks and groans,
The clock hands creep around.
He snuggles close to me still
And makes his baby sounds.
I love those quiet hours so much
And cherish every one.
Store memories up inside my heart
For lonely nights to come.
All to soon he'll be grown up
His need for me gone.
But until then I still have time
For kisses and for songs.
Time for quiet hours like this
With him cuddled in my arm,
Where I wish he'd always stay,
Protected, safe and warm.
And yet I know the day will come
When this tiny little hand
Will be much bigger than my own.
He'll grow to be a man.
But until then he's mine to love,
With no one here to see
As we rock slowly back and forth
My baby boy and me.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Love Letters
August 18, 1973
Fort Bonifacio
Makati, Rizal
Ms. Maria Elena C. Aquino
25 Times St. Quezon City
My dearest Ballsy,
An old poet gave this advice very long ago "when you are sad, remember the roses will bloom in December." I want to send you bouquet of roses, big red roses from my dreamland garden. Unfortunately for the present, my roses are not in bloom, in fact they have dropped all their petals and only the thorns are left to keep me company. I do think it is fitting to send you a thicket of thorns on this memorable day!
I am very proud of you because you have inherited all the best traits of your mother. You are sensible, responsible, even-tempered and sincere with the least pretenses and affection which vehemently detest in a woman. I am sure like your mother, you will possess that rare brand of silent courage and that combination of fidelity and fortitude that will
be the life vest of your man in the tragic moments of his life.
During my lonely hours of solitary confinement in Fort Magsaysay, Laur, Nueva Ecija last March and April with nothing else to do but pray and daydream, with only my fond memories to keep me company, I planned a weekend barrio fiesta for you in Tarlac for your 18th birthday. I fooled myself into believing that my ordeal would end with the fiscal year. I
planned to invite all your classmates and friends and their families for the weekends.
The schedule called for an early departure by bus from Manila and the first stop will be Concepcion, where lunch will be served by the pool. And after lunch, you were to visit the Santa Rita Elementary School to distribute cookies and ice cream to the children of that public school where you were first enrolled.
I guess sheer nostalgia prompted me to include Santa Rita. We were only three then: Mommie, you and I. Those were the days of happy memories little responsibilities, tremendous freedom, a great future ahead and capped by a fulfillment of love. You are the first fruit of our union, the first proof of our love and the first seal of our affections.
From Concepcion we were to proceed to Luisita for the barrio fiesta. I intended to invite a friend who could roast an entire cow succulently. Swimming, pelota, dancing and eating would have been the order of the day.
Sunday morning was reserved for a trip around the Hacienda and the mill and maybe golf for some of the parents and later a picnic-lunch on Uncle Tony's Island. Return to Manila after lunch. I am afraid this will have to remain as one of the many dreams I had in Laur.
Our future has suddenly become uncertain and our fate unknown. I am even now beginning to doubt whether I'll ever be able to return to you and the family. Hence, I would like to ask you these special favors.
Love your mother, whose love for you, you will never be able to match. She is not the greatest mother in the world, she is your sincerest friend. Take care of your younger sisters and brother and lavish them with the love and care I would like to continue giving them but am unable to do so.
Help Noy-noy along and pray hard that he will grow to be a real, responsible man who in later years will protect you all.
You are the model for your three younger sisters. Your responsibility is therefore great.
Please endeavor to live up to our highest expectations. Be more tolerant to Pinky, more accessible to Viel, our little genius-princess, and more charitable to Krissy, our baby doll, and make up for my neglect.
Finally, forgive me, my love, for not having been an ideal, good and thoughtful father to you all as I pursued public office. I had hopes and high resolve of making up, but I am afraid my destiny will not oblige.
I seal this letter with a drop of tear and a prayer in my heart, that somehow, somewhere we shall meet again and I will finally be able to make up for all my lapses, in the kingdom where justice reigns supreme and love is eternal.
I love you,
Dad
This is Ninoy's last letter to Cory
My Dearest Cory,
In a few hours I shall be embarking on an uncertain fate, which may well be the end of a long struggle. I slept well last night for the first time since I left Boston -- maybe because I'm just plain tired or I'm really at peace with myself. I want to tell you many things but time is running out and I do not have any machine. After a few more paragraphs, my penmanship will be illegible.
All the things I want to tell you may be capsulized in one line - - I love you! You've stood by me in my most trying moments and there were times I was very hard on you. But if anyone will ever understand me, it is you, and I know you will always find it in your heart to forgive -- and unfair and ironic as it is -- it is because of this thought and belief that I often took you for granted.
Early on I knew I was not meant to make money -- so I won't be able to leave anything to the children. I did what I thought I could do best, which is public service, and I hope our people in time will appreciate my sacrifices. This would be my legacy to the children. I may not bequeath them material wealth but I leave them a tradition which can be priceless.
I realize I've been very stingy with praise and appreciation for all your efforts -- but though unsaid -- you know that as far I'm concerned, you are the best. That's why we've lasted this long. There will only be one thing in the world I will never accept -- that you love me more than I love you -- because my love for you though unarticulated will never be equaled.
If all goes well I should be back in my cell before sundown. Should I be detained do not rush to get home. Take your time and enjoy a side trip to Europe with the girls.
I'll try to call you tonight if the authorities will allow me. Otherwise just remember me in your dreams.
Love,
Ninoy
P.S. I offered a special rosary for Papa and I asked for his intercession. You know he never failed me. (Ninoy here is referring to Cory's father, Jose Cojuangco, who died on August 21, 1976)
Thursday, November 20, 2008
what evry child needs
A little boy needs Daddy
Like holding him high off the ground
Where the sunlight sings!
Like being the deep music
That tells him all is right
When he awakens frantic with
The terrors of the night.
Like being the great mountain
That rises in his heart
And shows him how he might get home
When all else falls apart.
Like giving him the love
That is his sea and air,
So diving deep or soaring high
He'll always find him there.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Thursday, September 4, 2008
well-loved talking
His clean smell lingers,
But I do sweetly remember,
The soft brush of his fingers,
Sends shivers down my spine.
He greets me with a smile,
And leaves me with a kiss,
His eyes pierces my soul,
My heart curls and howls.
10:53 pm
9/04/08
%^&* of the day
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
a Christmas poem
Christmas is a time for Love; a time for Joy and Peace;
A time to trim the Christmas Tree and a time to stuff the geese.
It's a time when we can come together, however far or near;
To shed a little hope into a world of sorrow and fear.
Yet Christmas could be all year 'round, if only we would try
To gently wipe an old man's brow or soothe a baby's cry.
If we could smile throughout the year as we do on Christmas Day;
Just think what happiness we'd shed along life's weary way.
To give a gift of Hope to one who otherwise has none;
To be a Friend to somebody whom everyone else has shun.
To be Forgiving of our faults, and of our sisters and our brothers;
To Live in Peace and Harmony with ourselves and with each other.
Ah, don't you see that Christmas is more than opening up the gifts;
It's more than singing Christmas Carols and rolling in big snow drifts.
It's a feeling that can stay with you throughout each day, all year;
And all it takes is a loving heart.....and a sensitive little tear....
Monday, November 26, 2007
a Christmas poem
by Walter de la Mare
Sitting under the mistletoe
(Pale-green, fairy mistletoe),
One last candle burning low,
All the sleepy dancers gone,
Just one candle burning on,
Shadows lurking everywhere:
Some one came, and kissed me there.
Tired I was; my head would go
Nodding under the mistletoe
(Pale-green, fairy mistletoe),
No footsteps came, no voice, but only,
Just as I sat there, sleepy, lonely,
Stooped in the still and shadowy air
Lips unseen - and kissed me there.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
a Christmas poem
by Brian K. Walters
In todays day and time,
it's easy to lose sight,
of the true meaning of Christmas
and one special night.
When we go shopping,
We say "How much will it cost?"
Then the true meaning of Christmas,
Somehow becomes lost.
Amidst the tinsel, glitter
And ribbons of gold,
We forget about the child,
born on a night so cold.
The children look for Santa
In his big, red sleigh
Never thinking of the baby
Whose bed was made of hay.
In reality when we look into the night sky,
We don't see a sleigh
But a star, burning bright and high.
A faithful reminder,
Of that night so long ago,
And of the child we call Jesus,
Whose love, the world would know.
Sunday, November 4, 2007
poem on a Sunday morning
FROM loneliness to rage,
you slip into a bluster
of moods, each one has a
flag of its own.
FROM loneliness to rage,
you howl for any one
with two arms, to hold you,
untill this sadness passes
away.
FROM loneliness to rage,
you cry missiles that
explode in your head,
and land at your feet.
AMEN.............
DAVID GERARDINO



